and then what happened?: woe is me

December 01, 2006

woe is me

I am depressed. Not in a suicidal, crying my eyes out, not able to function way but nonetheless I am depressed.

I should be happy. I have a lovely house and life is great here for children with disabilities, so Little Bear is doing very well.

Little Duck is growing so fast and is starting to stand on his own. These things make me very happy and I am thankful.

I am also thankful to be in the sun and away from the record breaking rain of Seattle right now.

But, I hate it here. I've never felt less like I fit in somewhere. It's harder to meet people beacause I'm not working and our neighbors are not friendly, which is fine by me but grumpy and I just feel like we stick out like sore thumbs.

Everyone is too religious for us or they are kind of, well, red necky.

I miss my friends. I don't want to make new friends.

I know pity party waa.

It's just been a crappy couple of weeks. Grumpy had started this new job that had sounded so promising and now the company announces they are closing all the stores here in the area. So grumpy just lost his job last week and has to start all over on the job hunt. I mean God our health insurance had only been active for two weeks and then this happens.

I feel like I should go back to work but I want to stay with the baby. I missed so much with Little Bear beacause I had to go back to work.

I know waa waa poor me. I'll sac up and get over it eventually. I just needed to vent.

Posted by bugg at December 1, 2006 07:46 AM

Comments

Vent away! Sometimes a little healthy bitchin' is what it takes.

My fingers are crossed for your family that a new better job will come through soon!

Posted by: mona buonanotte at December 4, 2006 06:41 AM

I am so sorry about your state of mind right now. And it's really okay to vent, or else you'll go crazy. Hang in there. And on the bright side, you've been added to sexual dysfunction's favorites - WTF! Damn comment spammers. It is so hard to move to a new town and not know anyone. Maybe you can Google your town + bloggers and see if you turn up anyone you relate to??

Posted by: Jayne at December 8, 2006 01:54 PM

Oh, Honey! You have every right to vent about this stuff. That's hard stuff. Real stuff. Feel away!

Posted by: Karen at December 8, 2006 08:38 PM

thanks guys, i appreciate the support. i know it will get better. why can't y'all live here?

Posted by: Bugg at December 8, 2006 09:03 PM